Standing On The Face Of Something

Shortly after my dad died (3 years ago tomorrow actually) I made a decision to grieve publicly for a while as there were no pictures of grieving floating around to give people a clear idea of what grief looks like.  I wasn’t great at being public in my grief, goodness knows I’ve tried (most of those blogs remain in my myspace page, but it appears that some grieving one must keep to themselves and lock away.  Some of it can be public, some of it must be private in order to maintain a safe environment.  But I am switching courses and this I might as well start out publicly as well and see where it takes us?

Tomorrow I will be leaving my home in Nashville for two days to enter seclusion.  It’s a brief seclusion but one must pay rent and so can not disapear for too long 🙂  During this time I will be using the anniversary of my dad’s death to grieve deeply and intentionally for one last day.  I am not saying that I won’t be sad because I miss him in the future but I am going to make my best attempt at setting my grief aside.  I have been inspired by two of my dear friends to use the next day as a day of celbration of my father and that is what I am going to do.  🙂

So, I will let you all know how it goes and I’m going to try to blog more.  I haven’t been doing it much as I needed to seperate myself from the world for a while and really walk through my grief (which was much more difficult than I had expected to be perfectly honest).  Hopefully, the future will hold a new full length and some new musical projects.  I suppose we shall find out:-)

love kat